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I recall as a small child sitting in different positions aligning myself with different countries -ones I knew destined I would go to. I would meditate and gaze long term at things in nature ; part of my life, which later, upon reading shaman & sorcerer books felt like recognising kindred spirits.
Australia has been one of the most challenging places. I always take responsibility for my health.. I eat and live very naturally. A couple of years ago I went to Manila to correct a displaced jaw and address serious issues directly caused by top dental specialists here.
Thereafter out of complete pain wearing a dental acrylic splint that needed one last adjustment to reposition the disc in my jaw, I was put with another specialist here after I returned. He bonded/glued my teeth to it 3x ,pulled apart ,broke a tooth in the root and he and other specialists did unspeakable things to me..continuing for two yrs. Inhumanity of their arrogance and callousness … unbelievable. Hierarchical setup here made it impossible to get help.Thank god for green smoothies.I was still saving for my dentist in Manila going through severe pain. I had to bide my time.
My sleep attention became very strong.
Leaning half out of bed looking at my floor one night, I marvelled at how beautiful the wood was, smooth wide olive brown floorboards with exquisitely made small wooden nail heads of a lighter color, inches apart. I touched it’s silken surface ,then quickly retracted my hand.I was wondering why I wasn’t cold as it was freezing cold when I went to bed. I pulled myself back under the blankets ,then was urged to look at the floor again.I was confused as I knew my floorboards had metal nails and a darker hue to the wood. It was the same as before amazingly smooth..with wooden nails. I stayed there again for some time..standing on them this time. In the morning I expected to place my feet on floorboards.They were covered by my carpet! I’ve had dreaming in this attention before. With the pain I had, it gave me some kind of extended feeling to be able to keep going. I also over some years had experience of my bed shaking. First time ever was somewhat perplexing. I thought to be earth tremors. Then later I thought some spiritual presence from who knows what. I was ok with it. Maybe only twice over a long period of time.
Out of total desperation one night in serious pain and deciding I didn’t want to end my life yet, I called on my Ally.
In a deep sleep some hours later, I thought I was dreaming again..the whole bed first had a ripple go through it,but then became really violently shaking. I was not dreaming. It went on several minutes.I then heard a barely perceptible whistle.. a nice little bird song. There are many trees with bird noises throughout the night here. I was then irritated by it as it was so repetitive. I just wanted to relax and sleep.
Suddenly, the same sound ensued but so close to me..exactly near to my right ear – a being was making it’s awareness known to me! I knew it to be my Ally. I did not dare move for some time. I decided not be afraid and opened my eyes.To my right in front of my face was a green iridescent wavering form.. a form wavering within a squarish oblong ,not so big. I became elated but also apprehensive. I quickly closed my eyes.
The whistling continued. I tried to make out the frequencies numericals or patterns.Sometimes I did and then it would all change. I didn’t move for ages, not until the sounds became further and further apart and then further away until I slept, really exhausted the next day.
Thereafter I would call my ally most nights.The bed only shook a little these times to let me know that presence was there. I would ask questions of it and affirmatives would come via the movement, or a slight fleeting glance of a shape.
It gave me solace after all the jibes ,sarcasm of the medical professionals and lack of or erroneous treatment to me..which put me in the position of not being properly able to eat or speak for so long/torturous pain unrelenting. I realised at one stage,which in fact I knew from the beginning,that it was not really a good reason to be calling on my Ally. Somehow though it became very reassuring.
This continued for some months, until another experience , altogether different jolted me into a different reality.
I have been pushed to the absolute limits from a human perspective,experienced so much. but to to be in a space with others of shamanic awareness and abilities is a thirst, something I gravitate to. Long ago I relinquished any need to have perpetual abuse of any kind in my life. I did a lot of recapitulating. I was told by a dream also that I have been a mirror to many of these people, which if so, is interesting but not what I’m about. My intention is to be aligned with this earth, nature in such a way to be %100 alive.
I am thankful to know Lujan Matus and of people on this path.
To do any course with him is to know many of the secrets in this world …amazing,wondrous…for being and spirit. Why would anyone want to feel anything less.
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