I spent a week recently studying with Lujan, and we used a few days reviewing Dragon’s Tears. I had originally learned this form about 5 or so years ago so it was good to revisit it to refine my understanding and smooth out some of the movements.
After having learned and consistently practiced some of the other sequences, I felt I was able to now more adapt to and understand the unique energetic signature of this movement so as I practice now I’m am able to accept what I feel are the waves of energy that gradually encompass my energetic nature leading to a very supreme stillness.
I’ve also noticed that by relaxing and not trying to force the next movement, I’ve been able to feel the shift to an inner state of silence more profoundly that this series encourages.
During one session, this state of silence was very extreme. I was having a real struggle trying to keep my mind active because I didn’t want to miss the chance to pick up some of the subtleties in Lujan’s movements and make a mental note to not forget to practice them later. I felt a powerful feeling emanating from Lujan similar to a very potent emptiness—I had the visual sensation of a blackness with gold inside that was drawing me into it and this is where the silence was emanating from.
Afterwards, we sat down on the couch and I closed my eyes and felt or saw what looked two black serpent like currents of energy circling on the floor. Lujan suggested to visualize a red lotus in front of myself and then see myself being enveloped by it. At this point, feeling confident I recorded what I needed to in my mind to improve my practice, I was able to release my thoughts and gradually kept feeling shifts to what seemed like higher vibrations or frequencies as I was noticing a very fine humming noise.
Simultaneously, I was sensing what seemed like a small plant or tree sprouting from the crown of my head. At the highest or most refined point, there was a very blissful feeling that arose almost bringing tears to my eyes.
What’s really interesting is that these experiences have continued past this week. A few nights ago after sitting in a state of silence after waking up, I felt what appeared to be two black dragons circling over me in a spiraling motions in the shape of a double-helix. I had the feeling that the room was rotating as well and that my body was being pulled in a clockwise direction along with it.
A few hours before that I remember lying in my bed with in this same type of silence feeling my body was rotating incrementally on a central axis in this same direction almost similar to how the hands of a clock move.