This application for the Parallel Perception Scholarship was submitted by Sven. If you would like to offer your support for Sven please leave a comment at the end of this blog post.
First of all I would like to express my gratitude for this opportunity. Usually I avoid calling attention upon my story and the mere thought of taking part in this scholarship brought up a lot of inner turmoil already and this is where I would like to begin.
Listening to the core of my being, there is this memory of oneness and this longing to return to and rest in this state with no need to hide anymore. I am grateful that this memory always survived and shines a light on my path, on which one day I bumped into somebody who had been studying with you and I immediately recognized this blue spectrum of light he had cultivated as something known.
After having read your books I knew without a doubt we would meet one day and patiently
waited for the opportunity to arrive. The dense information transmitted by the books started to do its work and helped me to reflect on my being in a new way. I began to unmask and expose parts of myself that allowed the shadows mind to act and observe.
I remember a moment in which I was carrying my crying 6-month old daughter, offering her warmth and presence. Observing my body while carrying her, I noticed thoughts coming up, an inner drama.
“She is still crying, feels like she´ll never stop, I can not do anything I would like to”.
Breathing, observing my body, I was able to restore harmony, for a moment and then the inner dialogue returned. I went wild, breathing heavily I laid her down, excusing myself not being able to keep up the harmony, felt helpless, left the room trying to calm down, noticed there is no way out of this situation and went back.
I picked her up, held her in my arms and realized that there is the same presence looking through her eyes and mine, we are one. I was holding myself, my inner child, giving and receiving, restoring harmony.
Tears running down our cheeks, we shared one heart.
Thank you Lujan for sharing your gifts and shining a light on my path.