Spiritual Transformation and Keeping the Faith Against All Odds

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This application for the Parallel Perception Scholarship  was submitted by Jeff Allred. 

This year the scholarship includes a choice of either: attendance at the Dragon’s Tears Workshop in the Canary Islands from August 2nd-8th – or – participation on the online Transformational Healing and Meditation program.

If you would like to offer your support for Jeff please leave a comment at the end of this blog post.

I have been a seeker of spiritual knowledge my entire life.  At some point in the ‘70s, I discovered a popular series of books regarding one individual’s experiences with “Toltec sorcery.”  The information always held a very strong appeal to me, but always seemed incomplete, or inaccessible.  I read and re-read the entire series of books but never felt that what was presented was attainable by an individual, rendering the information impractical at best.

In December of 2014, in preparation for a family trip, I happened across the audiobook version of Shadows in the Twilight: Conversations with a Shaman, by Lujan Matus and W.L. Ham, and the description instantly appealed to me so I purchased the audiobook and off on my holiday travels I went.

Once I started listening to the book, I found it almost impossible to stop, even as my family accused me of ignoring them.  Every chapter captured my attention and was quite revelatory and the further I got, the more intrigued I became.

I had never heard of Lujan Matus previous to my discovery of the aforementioned book, but knew that I was on to something, and subsequently did a quick online search, bought audiobook versions of Whisperings of the Dragon, and Awakening the Third Eye, as well as hard copies of The Art of Stalking Parallel Perception, and Whisperings of the Dragon.  I continued to immerse myself in the books, reading when I could, and listening to the audiobooks during my one hour drive to and from work.

As soon as I had a grasp on the message that Lujan was conveying, I attempted to implement and actualize the Eight Gates of Dreaming Awake and had almost immediate results.  I saw how my thoughts and behaviors had impacted my life’s journey.  Once I started “listening to that which cannot be heard” clarity came into my mind like I have never experienced before.  I saw my relationship with my wife in a way I had never seen.  I was able to have what is likely the most honest discussion with her I have ever had.  It was freeing and frightening all at the same time.  The same clarity seeped into all areas of my life.

I felt like I was making great progress towards my spiritual goals for the first time in a very long time.  I was able to silence the inner dialog for increasing amounts of time, and as that time increased, so increased other positive aspects of my life.  Lucidity was spreading from my heart outward.

I have spent the last 23 years working in information technology at an academic medical institution and have been quite successful considering my lack of an advanced degree.  Applying my talents in a way that would benefit my fellow humans has been the foundation of my career.  I have always received excellent performance reviews and have never received any type of disciplinary action.

It was now almost 2 months since I had discovered Lujan Matus and his books and I was ( and still am) grateful for this discovery as I have a very deep feeling of correctness, like confirmation that I am heading in the right direction.

Imagine my surprise when during a regular meeting with my director, I was told that I was being placed on administrative leave, pending investigation of several accusations of wrongdoing by several of my employees.  After 2 weeks of administrative leave, I was brought back in and summarily dismissed from my position, with no further discussion.  The details of this situation are not appropriate for this particular discussion, but suffice it to say, I was in shock at the time.  Of course, I am not blameless in the events, but to have the situation come out of nowhere and explode with the intensity and impact that I experienced was both astounding and bewildering.

At the same time all of this was happening, I found that I was no longer able to quiet the internal dialog and doubt, indecision, and fear almost instantaneously replaced the clarity that I was previously experiencing.

I am slowly trying to get back on track, and finding it exceedingly difficult, so much more so than before.  I feel like someone or something is actively interfering with my spiritual journey.  From what I have read in Lujan’s materials, this was to be expected, but I was in no way prepared for what actually transpired.

I still feel like I am on the right path.  I still know that I need to soldier on, and I will, but I also know that direct tuition under the nagual Lujan Matus would be a much more effective approach to unlocking my awareness and furthering my spiritual transmigration.  I would profoundly welcome being selected as the Parallel Perception Scholarship winner.

Jeff Allred

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8 Comments
  1. There are soo many Great aplications! :D
    tough decision, id say.

    Way To Go Jeff!

  2. Winner or not Jeff, go and learn from Lujan directly if that is what you feel you should do. Good luck on getting back on track. May you get to where you need to be.

  3. Very good and sincere application

    Do you really need to fight soldier? This state of resistance will lead you nowhere.
    If you on the right path,just keep going….Can you find the money for this?

    Success Jeff

  4. Hi Jeff,

    I have experienced a similar situation. It seems that once you make a decision to follow this path, the very universe will rise up to help you.

    By “help”, I mean to say that it will destroy every false image you have been identified with (e.g., your career, your “good standing in the community”, your role in your family, your role in society, etc.) Everything that interferes with your ability to see and to act in accordance with what you see, will eventually have to go. (Unless, of course, your identity is more important to you than being able to see.)

    I’ve found that grasping for my old “doings” isn’t working any longer. So instead of earning a living, I spend a great deal of time gaping at flowers, feeling the sun on my face, and weeping at the beauty of birdsong. Naturally, my “life situation” sure does look like a hot mess. You too?

    Not that I’m concerned. Not really. It doesn’t matter in the end, but I’m quite sure that everything will work out perfectly.

    Keep the faith; stay connected. This too will pass. Everything in this world does.

  5. Despite the extremity of your situation, it’s accounts like yours that give foundation to my own hope for the world. Of course you’re going to find it harder to maintain inner silence when your world gets upended. No doubt you’re working hard to stabilize your situation on all fronts. Keep it up. Remember that feeling of seeing your wife in a new way. Let the deep beauty of that capacity maintain your focus and drive you forward. 23 years of experience matters. Speak with authority on that account. Someone needs you. You’ll find them.

  6. Wow, Jeff, that was interesting to read. Poignant! It seems to me that you have asked for help!! :) Can we create a new paradigm while keeping the old one? Even our body renews its cells at various precise intervals. Thank you for sharing your story!

  7. Dearest Jeff,
    Thank you for sharing your amazing story and how you got kicked off your former path. I trust that through your practice and being in stillness your path with heart will be revealed to you. Best of luck Jeff.
    Love, Georgina

  8. The spiritual journey is the one with the most surprises!

    Let the surfing lessons begin!

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