The Heart of Hearts: The Crucifixion


A friend asked me recently where this story originated and its meaning so I have taken this excerpt out of “Shadows in the Twilight”.

I first spoke about this in the documentary The Cosmic Giggle and it was actually something I became aware of when I had a vision of Jesus. I have written about this in The Art of Stalking Parallel Perception.

I hope everyone enjoys this altered perspective.

The Heart of Hearts

Excerpted from Shadows in the Twilight: Conversations with a Shaman.


Now Bill, I would like you to take a look at this well-known story as if it was an artifact in terms of your recollection of it. You see, what I am going to do now is give you a different version of what you have been told is a truth. The tale I am to tell will awaken a perspective that will speak to your heart and dissolve that solidified mindset which has been conjured into a belief system through repetition. Let’s observe the story of the crucifixion of Christ and change your viewpoint so the artifact can become fluid instead of fixed.

When Jesus was on the cross being tortured, it is said that he cried out to the heavens, “My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?”

This seemingly simple account in itself is the first conjuring. The visual image of Jesus looking to the sky implies that he is addressing a powerful being, seemingly separate and apart from him, that has at this point withdrawn care and love. This epitomizes the predator’s strategy, conjuring a fundamental dynamic of separation, abandonment and fear, and giving the message that we are divided, within and without.

In actuality, this man would have been looking down, into the hearts of those who loved him, they who were paralyzed by grief and dread, unable to voice their opposition to the atrocity that was being enacted, for if they did they would have been punished for speaking their truth by the governing forces who would have subjected them to a similar fate.

Simultaneously Jesus was viewing the corrupted hearts that believed their actions were justified. Here is where he realized how they had forsaken their truth, to the point where they were prepared to murder him, to extinguish something beautiful whose only purpose was to reveal where the darkness had stolen so much light.

Truly, what this man was saying was: “Oh my beloved, my heart of hearts, why dost thou forsake me?” What is essentially being revealed in this scripture is this question: “Why would the heart of another, which exists within all of us, wish to harm?”

You can see that this is an altogether different message to the one we have repeatedly been given. This deliberately corrupted portrayal of the divine is an overused stimulus to divide people and make us self- righteous, divorcing us from our innocence, which inherently recognizes unity. We must be determined to walk a clear path with heart, instead of being dragged into petty power struggles, which feed back into the illusion of duality and separation that further weakens us and blinds us to our true potential.

The foundation of dualism has been applied in so many different scenarios to control the masses. The central message being enforced over the ages is: Do what we tell you or bear the consequences. We are being herded like sheep via this ongoing cultivation of fear, away from our true potential: The realization of our heart of hearts.

When you are commanded to do what shouldn’t be done, if you comply it is due to the fact that you fear the consequences of being harmed, ostracized or ridiculed. We have been so finely caged that we don’t even know we have been caught. We see the cage, which is our corrupted behavior, as our freedom, as though it is our absolute right to operate from a covert and unintegral basis. A predatorial construct entraps us within our sense of self-righteousness.

Our rights really have nothing to do with the reason we are acting this way. Social conditioning has everything to do with the manipulation of truth to maintain control and hold our existence within a labyrinth so complex that the only way we will escape is to wake up to our hearts. We need to more deeply understand what is occurring within the matrix of our living perceptions, so as to free our selves from the never-ending loop of compliance being pressed upon us by beings, both organic and inorganic, that see us as an energetic resource.

With the four books I have written, I want to purposely incite resolution, so that people can come to an understanding of what’s really occurring and realize that we have to take back our energetic sovereignty in all circumstances, whether in dreaming or in the waking world. It is time we came back to our central simplicity, our essential nature as human beings, which opens us up to a vast universal awareness that is our true attention.


That was a beautiful story. It certainly got me thinking.

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  1. Thank you so much for that post. It was with great curiosity that I read this excerpt for one of your books, the “Shadows in the Twilight”. This book is now on my wish list.

    Consider this and all your teachings as vertical spiritual wisdom, an understanding affecting the human soul as our hearts are awakening. Lujan and Mizpah give of themselves as teachers and guides to help many. It is a very incredible but difficult time for many of us as we swim out of the murky darkness reaching for the light.

  2. This is a powerful passage within Shadows in the Twilight. It has served to break down many barriers of my perception. I can see this dynamic working its trouble into so many situations now. I can no longer support social dynamics, both in my everyday interactions and in widespread social causes, even though I can clearly understand the points trying to be made, or see that one side is more “evil” than the other side. It’s too easy now to see how something will not be resolved until each of us gives up the social constructs and the emotions that are triggered therefrom. It’s not an easy thing to do, but it surely does bring freedom of perception.

  3. “We have to take back our energetic sovereignty in all circumstances.” Absolutely. The trick is having enough of a taste of our energetic sovereignty to value it enough to ‘defend’ it. Modern culture strips it away from us at every turn. The Predator’s claws are in every aspect of our society. The one place it knows of, and wants to possess, is our very heart.

    Lujan and Mizpah, thank you for sharing your beautiful hearts and providing us tools to remember, to awaken, to claim our innate sovereignty. Namaste.

  4. The Lost Gospel of Thomas:

    Don’t be surprised if you find your words within his upon your own self-reflection when communicating to others.

    • This video is full of Truth, thanks for bringing it to our attention Lujan.

  5. Thank you Lujan.

  6. I’ve asked a few of my students to indulge me in moving their consensus reality away from its program via the technique of communion. If you are reading this, please relay your experiences here to further compound upon what Lo Ban Pai represents.

    A question that was asked of me in a Skype session – “Why am I so different to Juan Matus?”

    My answer was – I do not conform to any ideology. In other words, all units of information are expressed in comparison to the inquirer. And within that inquiry the expectation of the known is then transformed into the reflection of that consensus through not using the contours of its adaptation as the reality that is reflected back, but to listen to the transformative content as a vehicle of realization through my consciousness, which is the technique of communion that leads us to the boundless emptiness that is our source, which in the end provides the essential glitch.

    • Thanks for the interesting video Lujan, it has much food for the thought.

      By the way there is a slight inaccuracy in the video regarding the double slit experiment: it is not the act of observing but the act of measuring what makes the electron behave as a particle and not as a wave. In other words, the electron will still behave as a particle even if no one does ever look at the results of the measurement. The determining factor is therefore whether the information about the position of the electron at the double slit is available in the universe or not.

  7. Mystic Bob’s grandfather, a Toltec, was his first teacher. One Toltec quote Mystic Bob shared:
    “All paths lead to no where, as long we are on a path with a heart”.
    How else could I survive all the information which comes at me without experiencing inner silence?
    Mystic Bob recommended this website as he began to teach me what his teachers taught him. The knowledge of his teachers passed on to him, his knowledge to me. This website continues my growth into that which is still unknown. I chose to surf the galaxies on a surfboard and not go down the river in a silver canoe.

  8. I have been absorbed within its pages to the point where I have handwritten copious amounts of this wisdom onto A4 sheets of paper. I recognize it for what it truly is — A living library that exudes empowerment.

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